My radio attacked me…

Have you ever had one of those days where you’re just cruising along, and then BOOM, a song comes on the radio that makes you think of things & people you’d rather forget? So you change the station and there’s ANOTHER one? And another, and another. And my iPod was dead and I didn’t have the dang charger cord. I don’t think I settled on a station for more than ten seconds for my entire 40 minute drive home. And so it goes. I keep telling myself that someday, those songs won’t get me. And some days, I even believe me. For tonight, I’m music-free, and limiting my stimulus, lol.


On the plus side for today, I got to go to work. At a job that pays my bills. And allows me to care for some very wonderful people. In the last 2 days, at least 3 of them have told me what a good job I’ve done, and 2 I have no doubt I will stay in touch with for a long time. What I’m doing now isn’t what I want to do forever, but touching lives in the way these folks have allowed/needed me to, most definitely is. It’s powerful stuff.

In other good news, I was able to pull off a full 20 pound loss for the weight loss challenge at work. Here’s the sticky part. There’s only one person who’s really any competition. Both of us joined the competition late, or at least she didn’t really try til about a week after I started. But she really started working when she had a cardiac event (not the first) that sort of forced her to. And she’s working super hard, 24/7. Not that I’m not, but it’s maybe a bigger change for her? Anyway, she started at over 200, I’m pretty sure (we’ve kept actual numbers fairly confidential, between the participants and one of our charge nurses). And I *think* she’s lost about 20. Which means that percentage-wise (which is what we’re judging), I think I have her beat. It’s a $65 prize. I’m thinking about letting her win… she needs this so badly, she’s got to stick with this lifestyle change. Not that I don’t, and not that I won’t…but I’m not sure she will, and I wonder if that would motivate her more? At the very least, I’m thinking about asking the organizing charge nurse to declare a tie and split the prize. Any thoughts?


Two days off tomorrow and Thursday, finally, and I’m ridiculously excited. Gardening and running, along with some house-cleaning, are high on the agenda. Little monkey’s pretty pumped about these days as well. Finally being on a normal sleep-wake schedule is brand new for us, and it’s pretty freaking cool…except that she’s suddenly started climbing in my bed in the middle of the night again, after a month or so of sticking to her big girl bed. On the one hand, I feel like I should take her back to bed every time til she stops…on the other, I relish that time I can snuggle up and let her be my last little one… even if I do nothing, one day all too soon she’ll have grown out of wanting to snuggle up with her mama.


And that’s all there is to say here in the MonkeyHouse. Tomorrow will be W8D2 of C25K, and I plan on finishing it up on Thursday. I’m still trying to figure out what my structure will be after, because I know if I don’t have some requirement of myself, I won’t push as hard. I’m eating right on target, doing my best not to drink too many of my calories (yes, the radio incident may have inspired a beverage this evening, but nothing out of hand…or NOT in the journal 😉 ) I’m loving the LoseIt app far more than I liked fitday, and using it daily… Still stuck at 20, and I’m still aiming for that “NORMAL” BMI by the end of next month (tho I’d really love to see it sooner).


Thanks for following, thanks for cheering for me!


First and foremost, I have to accept an AWARD!!! (I’m ridiculously excited and thankful for this, and I HATE that it’s been since MARCH since I’ve been on an actual computer to figure this out). I apologize ahead of time for the fact that I can’t do the cool links that go from words I typed…


The rules for this award are as follows:

  • Thank the person who nominated you. Miss Beth, you inspire me EVERY single day, on both blogs, even when I can’t post, I hope you notice all those ‘likes’ from the iPod!!!
  • Share 7 things about yourself.
  • Pass the award to 7 nominees.

7 Things About Me

  • I started this new “life” on 1/28/12. Since beginning, I’ve dropped 20 pounds and gone from barely able to run a minute to running TWENTY-EIGHT minutes IN A ROW WITHOUT DYING today. And I’m still a smoker, but it’s on my list to change soon–I’ve even got the nicotine gum….
  • I’m a mother of four beautiful girls, and a single one at that. After 2 failed marriages, I have a grand total of 3 baby-daddies (yeah, no, I don’t really use that terminology daily). To some, this makes me damaged goods. For me, it’s experienced and wiser, and happy with myself right where I am. My oldest daughter has decided to be grown, is expecting her first child, and is living with her boyfriend. I’m doing my best to be supportive at this time, while worrying for her more than is probably good for either of us. I have a shared parenting agreement with my second ex-husband that means my 2 middle girls are here less than I’d like, but am thrilled that we have the close relationships we do. And then there’s the lil monkey, who I blog about frequently. She is only mine. Her biological father was someone who meant a lot to me, who I speak of as infrequently as I can manage, who I miss even as a friend a lot, and who has chosen not to be a part of our lives. All of my girls mean the absolute world to me, but being an ONLY parent instead of just a single parent has been life-changing.
  • As I type, my 12 and 9 year olds are here with me contributing to what I should choose as my “7 things about me.” They say I’m a fabulous cook and that I love to cook. Actually, cooking’s never been one of my favorite things…but I like to eat good food, and it’s way cheaper to cook at home, so I learned…and now, as I learn more about food and how it’s prepared elsewhere, I would rather see what goes into it….
  • Which leads to number 4. I’ve always been a little granola-crunchy…natural childbirth, breastfeeding, non-vax, making my own baby food, cloth diapers…I’ve done all of these things, and I’m happy to coach anyone who wants to try any of the above. Since starting my journey, I watched ‘Food, Inc” and it completely creeped me out regarding processed food. I can’t avoid it entirely, but I’m trying.
  • Last summer, I grew a garden for the first time in 34 years. I loved it. It was incredibly emotionally and spiritually healing for me. This year, I’m expanding x3 and working on growing from heirloom seed. This is part of what keeps me from blogging as much as I’d like.
  • I also, as I mentioned earlier, started C25K when I started this life change. My first run was in February, and a minute was rough. Today was week 8, day 1. Still rough, but I made it through 28 minutes. I am in love with and addicted to running. I’ve got a lot of anxiety about how I’ll keep up when I finish the program, and TERRIFIED that I’ll lose motivation and quit. C210K has been released, but an hour 3 times a week feels like a stretch–remember that I either pay for a sitter for the monkey or take her along in an umbrella stroller, which is REALLY hard when it comes down to running. Still searching craigslist for a jogging stroller, lol…
  • I’m a nurse. At heart, I’m a surgical nurse. Circulate, scrub…I love it. Ortho’s my favorite. I work in med-surg right now. It’s what’s available in my hometown, and here is where I belong. For my girls, and for my grandparents, who are aging and need me right now. I miss my specialty, and what I love to do, but I’m learning and growing where I am, and enjoying it as much as possible. The confused, crazy, and “worthless” are my favorite patients, probably because they are exactly like me 🙂

Time for nominations!!!! (Super anxiety–how the heck do I do this???)

And with that, I THINK I’ve done it…caught y’all up with where I am, and FINALLY acknowledged this award that actually made me cry cause it meant so much to me. 🙂 Thank you for reading and supporting me, it means more than you’ll ever know!